Random Talks

Nothing much happened today. After church pretty much stayed home the whole day.

I cooked fried rice today and some spaghetti for the week. I was so proud of myself when I finished. Its the kind you cook and you don't need anyone to tell you it does taste really good. I had some myself but couldn't eat much, I guess the after effect of cooking a gorgeous meal :-))

I had a friend over this evening, he wasn't hungry but at the sight of my food, he lost all power to resist. Hm..... he cleared out his plate and was tempted to have more lol... said he should have been single, so he marry me if nothing at least he'll get to eat this gorgeous meal (I'm not there o! if his wife heard that, hm... friendship no dey reach husband matter o! lol).

Anyways, spent the rest of my day cleaning my house, arranging my wardrobe and just generally walking back and forth my house pretending to be busy :-). Now I'm here writing instead of sleeping. I just can't seem to sleep... oh! I forgot to mention I also slept this afternoon so I guess that has taken sleep away tonight. Anyways I don't mind staying up late and keeping track on what's happening in blogville.

Read LB's Froday post today, in fact.... I didn't realise we had so much talent in blogville o! and that song she played?? OMG!! I kept refreshing the page lol.... beautiful...

You know tonight I was just here thinking about somethings I'd like to post, I have this post I was to put up in episodes, to even start writing sef na wahala, I'm just lazy, but I'll start it sometime this week.

What else?? I was also wondering why you hate to do something and yet it keeps hitting you in the face. You deny the fact, you believe it's gone and DANG!! when you look deep enough, you find out it's there and you hate to admit it but yes you just do care about some certain people no matter how much you deny it :-). Especially when unfortunately, they don't seem to feel the way about you :-( lol.... LIFE!!! innit??

Yours truly should be going on a date sometime this week. I haven't decided when exactly but I'll decide as the week unfolds. I also think there's this guy who really likes me but isn't saying anything about it :-)) , I think he has too many things he's trying to make right, put right, figure out etc...oh! well, too bad then cos if he doesn't say something, he doesn't get anything. I do hope that it's not too late by the time he's through figuring things out hehehe...

Anyways, about my date, he's a cool guy, I don't know jo! but lets see how it all goes. Will keep y'all posted :-)

Okay, now I think I need to get out of here, post this and maybe start writing out the story of the adventures of a certain best friend and moi :-)

Enjoy your week!!

Mummy...

I read LB's post today and I just couldn't help crying my eyes out. I know I'm usually teary when I read some of her posts but this time I just couldn't help breaking down. I'm at work but the tears flowed very freely. I just couldn't hold back.

I miss my mummy.... I read Bukky's post sometimes because it just make me remember mine. How I tried taking care of her while she was ill. I think seeing Bukky's mum's feet and her talking about how she gave her a polish change and sometimes a pedicure, just really broke me cos those were some of the last things I did for my mum before she passed. I did a french pedicure for her and she still has those nail polish on her toe nails right to the grave.

There's nothing, absolutely nothing like having a mum who really cares about you. Who not only cares about you but cares about EVERY individual that came into her life. Bukky I feel you a lot when you talked about your mum just loving everyone... that was my mum. She cared for people so much most times I just didn't understand it.

I remember while she was in the hospital just before she passed on, in all her pain and discomfort, she was still talking about someone she needed to give some money to because she was really feeling her. My mum had asked her what she wanted to do and the person said she wasnted to start some business. She started talking about how she wants to go home quickly so she can get some money for the person to start her business. I was almost upset at her but I just looked at my mum in amazement.
I mean you don't want to imagine how much we were paying for my mum's hospital bill and treatment, you don't even want to think about it and yet in all that she was still thinking of helping someone else who had not even once visited her in the hospital all through her stay there.

I remember at the church during the funeral some of her friends came to eulogise and one of them said...
" Tee is so loving, caring and she's so giving... She'll go whatever extra mile she can to help you, to give to you. If she meets you and you're in need of one of her eyes she'll give it to you, If she met another person who really needed an eye, I know Tee can give out the very last one she has. That's how compassionate tee was, how giving she was. She never wanted to see anyone suffer or in need, she would do whatever is within her power to help out... That's just Who she is"

I can never ever forget my mum, not just because she's my mum, but also because of the way she's impacted my life.

My mum was there for us. I mean she was THERE!!!

I remember growing up my mum would always tell us... "If there's ANYTHING, I mean ANYTHING you ever want, no matter how big or small, make sure you tell me. Don't ever go looking for anything from an outsider, always come to me. If I can't get it for you immediately, you know I'll do my best to get it for you eventually. Don't ever go begging for something outside okay??" and she always got us things we wanted. I remeber when loafers just became the fashion in town... ah! my mum watches out for those kind of things o! She took me out one day and said lets go and get your own loafers too and that's all we went shopping for that day... a pair of loafers for moi :-). She liked it when we dressed up well. She wasn't overly vain but if something nice was in season, we sure would be wearing it too lol... that's my mum for you.

She took such great care of us and there's no denying that fact. She made sure we were content.

There was no working day growing up as kids we were not guaranteed Mr Biggs when my mum got back from work. She always stopped to buy snackes for us when returning home from work.

My mum was that kind of mum everyone in your school just knew. She was the one hugging and kissing all your friends and even on lookers who didn't get visited on visiting day, just to make them feel wanted and loved, she jus had a great spirit.

She was the mum everyone referred to as Mummy. People confided in my mum much more than they did their's, it was amazing.
One thing with her though was as sweat as she was, she didn't take nonsense. She'll tell you when you do something wrong, she'll tell you when she thinks you're over stepping your boundaries, she never keeps a grudge so once she tells you off that's the end of it. She also can't fight so if she knows you're reacting to something she said or did, she'll be quick to come joke about it, not necessarily tell you sorry especially if she knows what she's telling you is true, she'll just be like... "huh! abi you're getting upset cos of what I said?? Ooto oro o ni kon ma sohun(Meaning the truth will always be told)" and then she'll give you a really warm hug and start gisting with you again.

My mum is also very perceptive. She catches everything, notices everything. She can also tell you about someone just spending a few minutes with them. Sometimes I ask my mum what she thinks about a particular guy that comes to my house and she'll tell you. I hate most times when she's right about a guy. Also sometimes she'll just come and say..."I don't like that your friend" and I'm looking at her funny now like... gosh! she's come again but most times she's right. Most times though she'll just tell you to be careful and watchful.

My mum loves gist... ah! she wants to know who's dating who and she'll come lie on the bed with me and my sisters or even me and my friends in the room when they spend the night and just gist away like a young girl.

I miss my mum o! So many things I'd have loved to share with her, some I know she'll yab me about, but I know even in that she'll still talk to me truthfully and out of love.

I miss my mum... she'd have called me tire... by now asking me when I'm going to be married.. telling me "ehn! Moment oo mafi oko se boyfriend ( meaning Moment better don't go pass off your husband as a boyfriend).

She's so warm so kind, so gentle, so determined. She's also very hard working... my mum works but she can also very business minded, she can sell you if you let her lol....

I said I wasn't going to blog about my mummy, not now at least but I was provoked to share a little bit of my mum today. I just can't help loving her in her absence right now.

I've never faced the fact that my mum isn't coming back. To me it's just like she's on some vacation and will be back someday so I never refer to her as "dead", I just always say she "passed". I guess the word "dead" just puts a finality or maybe its a reality to the fact that she's never going to come back. That, I'm not sure I'm ready to accept. I know she's alive with the Lord and most times I can almost imgaine that I see her looking at us. I dream about her sometimes and I'm the happiest girl on earth in the morning of those days.

I love my mum so much, I can't even imagine her not being at my wedding.... Gosh!!! I just can't men... I honestly can't.

I think about my hubby's mum sometimes, not that I know the hubby or his mum sef lol.... but I just always pray that God will bring someone who will be a mum to me and not a mother-in-law. I want someone who wont constantly remind me of the fact that my mum isn't there. I pray about it all the time cos it's so important to me. I know the extent my mum goes for other people and what she does for them. Even people that don't like her o! Can you imagine people not liking my mum??? You can guess why though.... it's just plain jealousy but she loves them and gives to them still. A lot of people I think always thought my mum was some mega millionaire cos of the way she gives and carries herself, she likes to dress up and look good and young too.
Hm... you should see my mum in Jeans or shorts, hm... she's a real mama o ni gba! she's got cool legs and she knows it lol........ so she likes to show off when she can.

She's just a lovely women, Great spirit, great heart, great personality. Ever friendly, always smiling, always kind and she can be strict too... ah!! my mum can be strict!

Anyway, not that I've told half of who my mum is but I think I've told enough for today. You can imagine if I actually planned to write about my mum, I can't imagine how long that'll be.

Long and short of it all is that I MISS MY MUM Terribly!

What are you looking for???

My peeps... you people should not vex for me jare. I've been really busy and haven't been able to update all these while, but don't worry it's been for a good course :-). Don't worry I'll respond to all your comments today.

Okay so now I'm back!!

Now, who want to take a peek into some of Moments thoughts ooo???..... ahn ahn!! why so many MEsssss??? okay, because I like you people, I'm going to share something I wrote sometime ago with you all.
It was just me putting down my thoughts and desires o jare, but since I wrote it, it must be true of some what I want :-).
Does he exist some might ask?? well I'm sure he does somewhere on this planet earth, he might not yet be completely all this sha lol... but I'm sure like clay in the potter's hands, he's being molded into all of these for me and don't worry he'll definitely get there.......
Enjoy!!

What are you looking for???

I’m looking for a man who would love me for who I am, some one I don’t have to be anything other than myself to please him.

Someone who would appreciate me, who would always want to be there, who would wake up every morning thanking God I’m in his life.

Someone who would love to have and raise children with me and I with him, who would be a father to them and along with me raise them to live conscious of the presence of God in their lives and be the best of they can be.

I want a man who I will be proud of, who will be proud of me, who would encourage me, who will be my friend, my brother, sometimes even my father Lolll...

I want someone I can look up to, someone who I wont be ashamed to learn from and who wont feel out of place putting me right and teaching me things I’m not aware of.

I want someone who’s fun, someone who knows to enjoy life, cease the moments, takes the time to spring surprises…. Someone Exciting.

I want someone who wants to grow consistently, who has a vision for his life and his career, someone who constantly strives to get the best and be the best also, someoen who's got ambition.

I want someone who has the interest of others at heart, someone who likes to help people, who want to give something to those who are less privileged, be there when he's needed.

I want a man, who’s not afraid to share his fears with me, his achievements with me, his thoughts with me.

I want someone who is willing to share with me the totality of his life.

I want a MAN, MY VERY OWN MAN :-)

Not one who's with me, with Cherry, Susan, Kelly and many more...

I want someone who's dedicated, Someone who's for real.

I wake up most mornings now wondering where you might be, why it’s taking you so long to find me, to reach me Lolll…..

I pray for you all the time, asking God to open your eyes to see, and that when you do find me, he also give you the conviction that you need to get to me.

I ask him to heal your heart, to heal your hurts fromthe past so you’re not bringing into our lives together regrets of old.

I pray for you always I tell you honestly…

Sometime in the past I never really prayed about you cos I didn’t think it was important.

Now I’ve become more mature, I’m learning that if you truly desire something, it might be worth praying about. I’m also learning that we can call the things that be not as though they were, that we can call forth our desires into being, that there’s power in what we speak, so I’m speaking concerning you now, speaking into you past, into your present and even speaking into your future and our future together, just trying to make sure that the way is prepared ahead of us getting there.

How I’m loving you from afar, I can’t see you right now, but I’m loving you from afar…
This might seem funny I’m sure, but it’s so true.

I’m just patiently waiting for the day you’ll walk into my life and I into yours.
I wont be able to thank God enough for finally bringing into my life My Soul Mate.

I’m so excited about the life ahead of us, but in the meantime, while you’re still finding your way through to my corner, I’m spending my time enjoying being single (you know... like just lounging on a Saturday and do absolutely NOTHING for myself or anyone else for that matter, it's such a great feeling sometimes), I'm spendingmy time developing myself, building myself, reaching out to others, just generally living my life out and I'm definitely also preparing myself for a life ahead of me with YOU :-).

Catch you when you get here…

HAPPY NEW MONTH BLOGVILLE!!!

I wish you all the very best this new month; I pray that this month will usher in the abundance of God's blessings into your lives, that your heart's desire will be fulfilled this month, that all the things that have proven difficult for you in time past will in this month become possibilities and achievements in Jesus Name (Amen).

This is a very sinificant month for me. Yours truly is laying down all her sorrows, her pain, her heartaches, her failures, her disappointments, her fears, her apprehensions, her desires, her past, her present, her future before the Lord. I'm truly handing them over to him because only HE can turn them around for my good, only HE can turn them around in my favour, only HE can cause my desires to come to pass and only HE desires much more fo me than even I desire for myself.

I'm looking off man now for anything, I'm looking up to the hill now, putting my trust in the Lord. You know sometimes we say we hand something over to God, but we still try helping him, sometimes we even go back taking them over to ourselves again, I've been guilty of that for a while. I think I'm tired of doing that now, I quit!!

This month, I'm stripping off everything, leaving them all behind. I'm ready for a fresh start. I'm truly ready to experience Love, Joy and true satisfaction; not the one that comes with baggages or with something to pay back, No!! I'm talking about the real deal. I'm ready to let him FATHER me, the way only HE can.

I'm ready to take on my life again, it seems I kind of let go of it at some point, like I knew what I was doing when I really didn't, like I was in control, in charge when in actual fact I wasn't. I was sinking lower and lower, just going down...., but Today,

I start my life AFRESH, my journey ANEW to that destination I've always craved for....

HAPPY NEW MONTH EVERYONE.